how to start ?

"How I try to express what's been troublin' my mind but still can't find the words "

i just dont wanna lose this feeling :(

but for my goodness, i must do this. errase everything and try to stop thinking about you. i cant follow my ego. maybe the words of "good things come to those who wait" unable in my life. good things come to those who always try and try to get it.

i've ever felt this feeling before and its very hurts. really, i hate myself. very weak!